Put your feet to the edge

It's been quite the past couple of weeks. Many trials and tribulations have come my way but I know that God has a hand in all of this. Knowing you've made the right decision should never be easy and if it was something was definitely wrong. I love to ride; I live for it is probably what I should be saying it's my stress reliever, workout, bonding, and everything else in the world to me. I can go in a bad mood and come out tonally on top because my horse was a complete rock star. These animals know what’s going on they hear the changes in the wind. Its instinct they can tell when you're upset scared. My time ending at one barn opened a door for bigger opportunities at another. I am so thankful for everything my old barn has taught me. But I feel like they don’t see it the way I do you take what you can and then it’s time to move on you plateau and its nothing personal. I have done it plenty of times and when you learn what you can what’s the point in staying to just stay at the same level I'm on my way to the Olympics and I need to keep progressing keep riding keep moving on and loving my sport I can’t drive to the barn feeling hopeless and down. I can’t cry as I’m leaving the barn knowing that an opportunity somebody else got should’ve been mine. I’ve been working my whole life for this and for what? To sit on the sidelines I think not. 

Find the Beat Again

so this is my third year at KSU and I often look back and wonder what I have been doing the past three years? Since changing my major and actually taking classes that relate to my major I feel that now I have something worth going for. So have I just been wasting all this time? No i don't look at it that way I see it as an opportunity to figure everything out to let go of yourself and find the beat again. Sugarlands most recent album has a song titled exactly that some of the lyrics are "why ya walking around with your heart so heavy is it weighing you down?" that is exactly how I've felt the past two years why in the world am I still in school this isn't for me and I'm not ready to face the world I would so much rather ride horses in some new town leave everything behind, take my saddle and a suitcase and leave. How awesome would that be no strings no worries and nothing to lose. but then I think what if I do that and then I suddenly realize I have nothing but this if i get hurt I cant ride. I use every part of my body to ride and thats just not what is going to work. This is where I find myself my third year in school majoring in GIS and living the life I should at this day in time live for the moment and you will find your beat again.

error error where are we

Hello blogging world I completely forgot I even had this haha but I have been wanting to start writing again. so a new semester a new year new classes new major new job new living arrangements. I love my life i really do i wouldn't trade it for anything. but I can't complain I had to move back home sad but I needed to get a part time job save up money and get my ducks in a row. I have to realize I don't live in the world because i do and money is real so you better start working for it. I ride to live and live to ride but at some point you have to realize that in order to ride you have to pay. the sport of kings my dad says so I have to support it on my own. this is completely wrong it feels to be moving back to the city i loved the country and the farm and the horses and doing whatever i wanted with whoever I wanted. it's a fine line between dealing and pushing I can't even explain how I feel. there are wins and losses but I must get a job must save money must horse show must be near the country must breathe.... right i forget to breath it s not normal anymore its hard and dense I'm working hard and then I want to play even herder but I know I shouldn't. I'm 21 and have a boyfriend and older friends why shouldn't i go out and enjoy my life after all you only get one. but thats not what this is about its about living your life and making it count not forgetting that you have to love what you do. I changed my major im gonna be a map person GIS geographic information sciences. its crazy how much i like it and want to take more its a hunger that is good for me because I'm terrible at school and don't want to deal with it at all but these GIS classes make the others bearable.It's weird to like school its a foreign idea but I enjoy it. I love my boyfriend he is so good to me and i feel like we are closer than ever and I can't believe we have been together this long its amazing and beautiful and I can't imagine my life without him he supports me with everything i do and he loves me with all his heart too he pours his heart out and gives 110% when all i can give is 80% he steps up for me and believes in everything I wanna do. What a whirlwind of adventure and craziness and i call it my life. hope you can follow this post its a little ridiculous i'll try and post daily and figure out everything

sicilia post 5

Visiterò la Sicilia con i miei cinque migliori amici. Anna, il sarah, il jessica, l'eden ed il rebecca. visiteremo la mia famiglia e mangiamo alcuno cibo reale italiano.
 mentre siamo in Sicilia che visiteremo fornello a spirito di Monte, che è la montagna la più grande in Italia è sempre freddo alla cima anche in estate.
progettiamo di visitare il palermo poiché bene vedere la città e tutto deve offrire.
i castelli di monasteri ed il tipo molto barocco di campidoglio.
vogliamo visitare anche le spiagge di isole e nel tempo più caldo saranno perfetti per rilassare
L'eden e voglio passeggiare dei cavalli sulla spiaggia, mentre l'anna
ed il rebecca vogliono fare spese nei piccoli negozi
e vede che il jessica dei venditori di strada vuole mangiare appena il cibo italiano tutto
il giorno. guadagnerà probabilmente almeno dieci libbre alla fine del viaggio.
tutto abbiamo fatto le valigie molto bene con una combinazione o uni vestiti di inverno ed estate.
Il rebecca ed il jessica vogliono andare Agrigento di visita.
ha molti templi antichi greci, compreso il Tempio di Concordia, uno di solo due
 completamente quelli stando in piedi in Sicilia.
Il Sarah ed Anna vogliono vedere gli sguardi di città di vetta di Taormina alla costa ionia
piena di ristoranti ed i negozi, con le spiagge vicino. Il suo storico è L'anfiteatro greco, con la
 sua famosa veduta panoramica di fornello a spirito di Monte e la costa ci sono dei concerti e
dei giochi, ed i muri medievali Ci sono diversi castelli, compreso
quelli nel Castelmola che trascura Taormina.
saremo corsi qua e là per visitare molte cose quest'estate ma siamo eccitati molto per il nostro viaggio

sicilia post 4

caponata

8 melanzane di misura mede (le melanzane), 200 grammi di pomodori pelati maturi, 2 medio misura delle cipolle dolci bianche o gialle, il cuore di un grande sedano, 200 grammi di grandi olive snocciolate, guarite, ferme verdi, 200 grammi di scherzi (se l'immersione salata nell'acqua ed il canale di togliere il sale), l'olio d'oliva extra vergine, l'aceto bianco, lo zucchero, il sale.

Tagliare le melanzane nei grandi pezzi di un pollice o due centimetri squadrano. Non pelare. Cucinare questi trattando con vapore coperto in una grande pentola fino a completamente cotto ma la società. Tritare i pomodori nei piccoli pezzi o una polpa spessa, senza scartare il succo o senza le semenze. Tritare le cipolle nei pezzi medii o le fette magre. Tagliare gli steli di sedano

sicilia post 3

Napoleone Colajanni è dall'Enna di città in Sicilia
unisce il Redshirts nella Spedizione del Migliaio per l'unificazione di Italia in 1860
Colajanni unisce il partisansExpedition contro Roma
è molto breve ha uni baffi ed è un piccolo grasso
 ha dei capelli grigi ed indossa un cappello nero con
 una cravatta ed un abito
è ribelle dal suo tempo e molto espansivo ed è molto franco 
e sicuro di sé in tutto fa
è molto arrabbiato alla mafia e non ama il potere in Italia dai vecchi tempi

sicilia post 2

L'Enna di città è localizzato al centro di Sicilia.
è molto montuoso e ha molte piccole case e la città è molto piccola.
La santa settimana è il migliore tempo di andare alla città.
il Casale di del di Villa in Piazza Armerina e Morgantina è i migliori luoghi di visitare.
tengono anche la città che va.
il Casale di del di Villa è molto grande ed è nel mezzo della città
vicino alla chiesa e giù per la strada dalla fontana

Sicilia post 1

la regione che ho scelta è Sicilia
La Sicilia è localizzata al fondo di Italia. È un'isola.
una delle cittì in Sicilia è chiamato il castello

so today is april 9th 3 more weeks of the semester. a little scary. i thought we just started in january and now its coming to an end i am not excited about my summer math class yuck!! but I am excited to be able to spend some time by the pool and catch a break!! I love my job but sometimes i just need to sleep and soak up some sun :) what an interesting year this has been many changes and old discoveries. Finding some real friends is hard work and not everything comes to down to how much it affects you its the people around you who you'll end up hurting the most. it's a simple saying however we so often find ourselves doing it. it's crazy if you think you don't but i guarantee you do. I've have learned from all the times I've done it this year and it has yet to completely sink in im still learning taking chances staying awake for something great to happen or falling into a deep sleep and completely missing everything haha
what a crazy world we live in and how often we take it for granted the smell of spring the warmer weather. go outside live a little and enjoy everything that god has given us to enjoy yes finals are coming up but an hour underneath a tree sounds so great right now watching the sun set listening to the birds put themselves to bed would be a miraculous sight. so crazy people get out there and start living I know i am :)

Once A Life

One step farther from home
It brings me closer to you
the song playing clear as day
but it fades in comparison to you

Slowly our eyes meet
It's perfect to us I know
exactly all I wanted is before me
All of it aligned in this place

I couldn't think of a better day
We've been waiting so long for
And all this time I've loved you

Everyday will be like the first day
I know this because we've been through fire
the storms have passed and leave us
this is what we always do

you take me closer
I say my vows to you
the tears start to run as you say yours
that final kiss seals all my fears

Coming back

because you are my everything and you are my all

and if you walk out on me what then will there be for me

nothing at all that i can reach for or touch with my hands

your walking out the door and slamming it gracefully

how will i breathe again i've already forgotten

my stomach convulses as i fall to the floor

my hands reach out too late as my voice never comes

and i can't see you anymore the tears run endlessly

i wrap myself in your old shirt that you left

i see the toothbrush on the sink and cry even more

i wonder if you'll ever come back for it

i want you to come back and it be for me

so please walk back through that door 

let it be the only thing you wanna do

i hope so hard that my heart is screaming 

help me dear and just come back to me

I know I was wrong but i'll make it right

you know I can't live without you

so why should i be living at all

it's not worth the pain i'll experience day after day

nothings gonna make it better

i know time will only make it worse

knowing your not walking through my life

only in for a time and out for eternity

when you get bucked off...definition argument

                How do you define an athlete? Is it someone who is six foot five, bounces a ball, and shoots from a ridiculous distance? Is it a girl who is almost four feet tall launching herself over a pommel for that perfect landing. What is the measurement for a sport that is accepted into our society? Many times it is mostly played by men or adapted for women like soccer or women’s rugby. Even Ultimate Frisbee being co-ed. America has become very supportive of male and female sports but there is still a rivalry for many men but mostly women. These women are a select few in the world whose partners are not stored in gyms or garages; they require two meals a day and six days a week of hard exercise. We are equestrians and in order to win at our game we must have an unbreakable bond with our horses so that when we jump a six foot obstacle we make it over.

                Many people do not consider horseback riding a sport it is merely a game to them. My own brother who is a varsity soccer and football player tells me every time he sees me that horses do not require a ton of work. Anyone can get on one, yes but can they make it do a piaffe (trotting in place) or tempi changes (switching leads in the canter) without a single movement. Most equestrians think canter and their horse is off. It’s much deeper than the world sees it. A horse requires day in and day out care they need to socialize with their rider and other horses. They want to know you and be your friend we just have to let them in to find out the exciting adventure that awaits.

reading response

I have not yet gotten my book in the mail so I’ll talk about the research process for my memory paper. The topic is the barbaro accident that happened in 2006 in the Preakness race. There are 3 different races most people are familiar with the Kentucky derby but there is also the Belmont and Preakness all three add up to the triple crown, when a horse wins the triple crown it’s a big deal. There have only been a handful of horses to win it and the last one was back in the 80’s. I was excited to find that I was rough on the details so I actually had research to do when I started the process. The year was fuzzy in my head I wasn’t sure if it was 2008 or 2006 but as I researched some old magazine articles and online sport websites they went into a lot of depth about this horse. He was an American hero in 2006 and everyone seemed to love this horse.  When he fell in that race everything stood still and it was a race against time to get the horse into the hospital and fix his leg. Barbaro had broken his right rear ankle a similar break that had put down the racing filly Ruffian and ended her career. The research for this paper probably will not be very difficult but at the same time it will be hard to diversify my sources from online and newspaper articles. When the accident actually happened this horse was on the front cover of every newspaper in America and he has many books written about him so I’m quite certain that later I read the pages in the book we were assigned I’ll have a better idea of how to research correctly.